14 February 2013

Picking Blackberries



Late August, given heavy rain and sun
For a full week, the blackberries would ripen.

Blackberry-picking, Seamus Heaney




The poem isn’t about blackberries at all.
But back then it could have been;
for us it was as simple as the narrow corridors of spines
that weave through the allotments.
as simple as hands and fingers and faded margarine tubs. 


Ripped jeans from the barbed wire fence
that tears the Ashley Down Road
from the private grid of potting sheds.
We were fearless.


Yet secretly inside we shook
with the thrill of breaking the rules.
A sour sweetness bursting between our teeth; 


Now we’re proud of tastes matured. The indigo fruit
replaced by sophisticated Italian drinks and


The cafe table is too small for me and you,
for all our knees.


We catch each other’s last goodbyes upon our tongues
like moths
and hold them tight between our lips; our gums bruise deep
with bloody bramble wine.


The feather light palomino swirls of foam
Slowly cooling in the curve of a coffee mug.

19 February 2012

But what do you ACTUALLY want to do?



The answer is simple: I want to get up each morning, work, play, relax, laugh, eat good food, love, and go back to sleep each night. I want to be happy. Does that simply not make the cut anymore?


Every GCSE, A level or university advice conversation I have had or overheard with teachers manages to craftily meander its way round to the same old question. You need your defences ready. Yet although they all seem keen enough to ask, and to nod approvingly when the cowering object spurts out plans for dentistry or vetinary science, careers advice in the education system today seems haphazard.


Far from being based on enjoyment or genuine interest, advice is often geared towards chances of passing entrance exams, suitability, contacts or perhaps worst of all, family tradition. The result is that young people often find themselves working towards a certain career path, undergoing gruelling work experience and endless cramming only to one day wonder why they ever chose that route in the first place.


I know many people whose career and university decisions are based upon chance opportunities, romanticism, impressions drawn from the media, a vague sense of obligation or a skill in a certain subject, rather than a genuine desire to become the next neurosurgeon. A few years ago my siblings and I could have been described by a cynical observer as 1) a potential journalist who refused to read current affairs, 2) a would-be lawyer with an aversion to rules and 3) a disorganised and antiauthoritarian budding fighter pilot who hated early mornings. For us it has turned out just fine; we now respectively read the papers, have a strong sense of justice, and do a paper round, but things could easily have been different. It is, surely, the job of teachers in charge of future choices to ensure that pupils choose the courses and subjects they do for the right reasons?


I know from firsthand experience how easy it is to go into denial about a wrong choice, and to not do anything about it because it seems both too late to change and a shame to waste all the hard work. A few years down the line, perhaps mid-degree or whilst job-hunting, it truly is too late to change your A Levels, and so perhaps better advice is needed not only from the outset, but midcourse if things really don’t go as planned.


However, careers advice has a far greater role than simply guiding those with a wide range of options but who are lacking in ambition; it is not only for the privileged. According to the Department for Education, post-16 advice comes “hand-in-hand with a focus on raising aspirations, broadening horizons and increasing social mobility”. It seems, therefore, that the government accepts that talented but economically disadvantaged young people are often dependant on inspiring and enthusiastic guidance from their schools to achieve their full potential. Yet paradoxically the same report states that no school or college is “required to engage with any one particular curriculum” in the field of career’s advice, meaning that there is no specific guidance or funding available to schools wishing to provide futures advice. Understandably, many schools in underprivileged areas opt to focus on core English, Maths and Science to increase students leaving with the essential 5 A*-C grades at GCSE, rather than spend valuable resources in inspiring the brighter students to aim for higher education.


So the problem is two-fold: many children never achieve their full potential because the possibility of A-Levels and university is never broached, whilst those lucky enough to take higher education for granted are often guided into an accepted profession instead of being encouraged to consider what they want from their career. Key points, such as where they would like to live, the hours and effort they are prepared to contribute and the atmosphere in which they will thrive are often overlooked. Meanwhile, the subject of a careers’ flexibility once children come into the picture is given an even wider berth for fear of appearing sexist when advising bright, aspiring girls. The solution, of course, would be the introduction of government funded careers advice counsellors in post-16 centres, yet seeing as we can hardly afford the free school meals programme nowadays, this seems unlikely.


So for now it is down to existing teachers and parents to stress the importance of happiness. Because at the end of the day that’s what we’re all here for, and if becoming an international lawyer helps you achieve it, so be it. If you’d genuinely rather live on a farm in Chile, however, or become a reclusive poet, then I don’t see how wasting sweat, tears and taxes on a degree is going to be useful to anyone, the government included. We should be encouraged to aim for what we truly want, and in a fast paced society of career ladders and age discrimination it is so easy to realise this a little too late.

10 February 2012

Call the Midwife


The BBC’s new hit drama seems less Downton, and more down to Earth. Set amongst the nitty-gritty poverty of the 1950s East End and adapted from the true memoirs of Jennifer Worth, Call the Midwife has captured our imaginations this winter.

The show’s popularity has taken even the Beeb by surprise. Although launched off a successful first series, snappy detective drama Sherlock was far outshone by the bloody labour scenes and social witticisms, which attracted over 9million viewers. But as a series directed mainly at female adults, how has it reached record highs for debut drama ratings?

Perhaps it’s simply the time of year; we are struggling through endless dark evenings with New Year’s resolutions and hot water bottles, with no mince pies to tide us through. Or maybe the figures are an extension of the recent childbirth fad, which has seen programmes such as Channel Four’s “One Born Every Minute” sweep to the top of the tables.

Of course, the star-studded cast and crew help. Miranda Hart, the lovably posh-but-awkward comedienne, as blundering Chummy has attracted her sitcom’s 3 million fans, whilst the relatively unknown lead, Jessica Raine, is convincingly sincere. Yet Eve Stewart, the genius responsible for the oh-so realistic production design on The King’s Speech, has been accused of “sugar-coating” post war poverty.

It’s true that the worn buildings and furniture appear charmingly vintage rather than run-down, and the residents watch children in cheerful community spirit. However Philippa Lowthorpe, the Bristol based director acclaimed for her drama Five Daughters, has retained some realism through the deaths that occur throughout, revealing why the show was originally intended as post-watershed.

But if the still births and glass rectal tubes aren’t enough to make the programme gripping, then it’s the simple but evocative storylines that save the day. More believable than the dead Arabic princes of Downton, but without Birdsong’s exhaustingly emotive scenes, Call the Midwife is perfect to cosy down to this snowy weekend.

5 January 2012

bring on 2012

So, the new year is finally here. Not really sure what I expect from it, except a lot of revision and going off to university. I have to say that 2011 has definately been my best year to date, so 2012 is goin gto have to work pretty hard to beat that! Anyway, here are a few of my new years resolutions... all deliberate unchallenging/daunting!

1. Cook more. Itll be a great skill to have next year, and is fun! What's not to love?

2. Learn a song off by heart on the piano. I can play endless chopin and debussy from books, but whenever i see a piano elsewhere and someone says "play it", I just can't. I really have to get that sorted!

3. Have more fun... to not say no to going out just because I have been so busy, an evening in isnt always the solution...

4. do the bristol 10k. Not sure if this counts because i had already signed up, but it's quite an impressive resolution for me so I'll keep it!

5. write in this blog more often, or just at all to be honest. I have become completely and uterly hopeless, and am not proud of it!

And that is my humble list. All seems fine to me, especially because I have no exams this january!



And for now, Happy New Year from me! x